It has been granted to me – GRANTED? Really? Suffering doesn’t seem like a gift. This passage must be a sick joke. My faith has at times been a curse – to know you exist but wonder if you’ve forgotten me. We journey to the cross. The path has not been easy. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. Your path and your plans are so unpredictable. I am afraid. I know my policy is not of this world. I know my allegiance to you marked me with your cross upon my head. It puts me at odds with Satan. I kneel at your feet Lord and pray for mercy. Amen!